What is the one thing you are most thankful for this year? Weirdly enough, what I’m most grateful for is my broken foot. Breaking this bone has made me realise that my family and friends really love and care for me so much. Especially my family, who have really given so much to take care of me.

I’m the sort of person who is always running around. I’m the sort of person who will always agree when anyone asks for help, when anyone asks to hang out, I’ll be there. I was always out and about, serving here, serving there, going here, there, everywhere. But recently, I’ve had three serious injuries which kept me home. The longest of which is the broken foot. At first I was very angry and upset. I kept thinking, why is all this happening to me? Three serious injuries in the same number of months? Not funny lor.

God makes all things happen in His time. I guess He kept me home this period of time because I needed it. After the Awaken III Prep Camp, Cass and Flo sat me down and had a good long talk. They really brought many issues to light, many of which I didn’t even know I had, and they challenged me to face these issues. One of the ways was to pray more and learn more about God and who He wants me to be. For a month or two, I was doing exactly that, but soon I forgot about it and went back to my old ways. Then the first accident occurred, forcing me to stay first in the hospital then at home, giving me loads of alone time. But once I was able to move about again, I went back to my old ways, running around and throwing myself into whatever people asked me to do. Then a week before Prep Camp, I broke my foot. I got extremely frustrated, again. But there was so much support and love from my community, which gave me hope that I could do something for Awaken even though I couldn’t be there physically. Though I couldn't be there, I could still pray. "A prayer warrior anywhere, anytime." And I really prayed fervently. For the first time ever, I was praying every day. I'm not someone who prays a lot. I don't think I even pray a little. So I didn’t really know how to pray. During this period, I could only turn to Him to teach me how to pray. I was asking God to just guide me in praying for Awaken.

It was during these conversations with God that I started to learn more about myself and who He wants me to be. And also, through conversations with people He has brought into my life that help me realise what He plans for me. The funniest thing is, up until the afternoon before the session, I was still feeling upset and frustrated about these injuries. You see, God speaks to me in sudden bursts of realisation. It was only during the short prayer that Leonard prayed before the testimonies that God put that realisation in my mind that hey, you know what you should be grateful for your broken foot. It is during this time that you have been most quiet and open and I have been able to give you these understandings about yourself. And also helped you to realise how I speak to you. I am always here speaking to you, just that you didn’t recognise it was me.

I’m so thankful for this period where I’ve really learnt much more about God and myself.

You are tending to pursue your objectives with concentrated intensity and it would seem that whatever obstacles may come into your path, you will stick to your guns and will not allow yourself to be deflected from your purpose. You are striving to achieve recognition and what is more - you deserve it.

You dislike playing the field in every sense of the word. When you develop a relationship it needs to be a close fulfilling one, one that has deep meaning for all parties concerned.

You need a friend - a close friend - and you are willing to become emotionally involved with the right person, but you are very demanding and particular in your choice of partners. You are constantly looking for reassurance and it is perhaps because of this that you tend to be somewhat argumentative, but you try to hold back - careful to avoid open conflict - since this might reduce your prospects of realising your hopes of establishing a warm caring relationship.

You feel that you must have co-operation from those close to you before the existing stressful situation can be improved. You feel that no-one understands you and this lack of understanding and appreciation makes you feel completely isolated. You need that feeling of security and would like to get away from what you now consider depressing shackles. You have that need to re-establish your own individuality but your sensual self-restraint makes it difficult for you to let go - to open up, but the way that you are feeling at this time makes you feel that 'Enough is enough' and you are prepared to give in. This disturbs you as you feel that this attitude is an obvious sign of weakness - an attitude to be overcome and so in spite of this situation you feel that in order to assert your own individuality you need to continue to practice self-restraint.

You really like doing what you do and, more than that, you like yourself. Your attitude to work and to life is that 'If its not fun - then don't do it'. You want to be liked and respected, not for who you are but for what you are - and it seems to be working.